Saturday, August 3

_{was surfing for so long...+ forgot all about this.
guess jus blog....}

sick + tired of empti promises
arrx.dun ask me why i set that.
dunno. went out in the morn with my mum + sis.
initially i was really looking forward to going out
with them then obviously something to had to happen again.
dun understand whats wrong manx.
was then sulking all the way to city hall...reading my lime

went to see some exhibition. some buddhist relics ..
gosh. like so many intricate designs + sculptures can.
the people of the past damn damn talented! hmmx. there were
many leftover remains from the cremated body of Siddharta
[[i tink its him]] looked like colored stones/gems but..
all those had come from a cremated
body. wonders man. mum said something about something
being in the Way to be able so miraculous. but ehs. guess i really not that
religious. maybe will be in the near future. but acks.
all was going well.
didn't feel so pissed + angst as i prayed. hmmx. realised buddhism's qt interesting.
but din really have the mood to go check out the artefacts etc.
had breakfast-cum-dinner den.
was really enjoying. till somehow. tt fre*kin woman got pissed with me again.
haix. duno larx. den aft that... we split up at the mrt interchange...
leaving me + my youngest sis. went to buy some stuffs for tomorrow.
haix. think my sister's jian shi bu duo...shall bring her
out ... aft her exams perharps?! arrx. can sense it. my
mum is against me. so is my dad. what the h*ll lorx.
arrx.
sick of hearing the beeping sound...
[[meaning another infected file has been deleted]].
woas. just did a check. and guess what.
10000 files have been deleted... and the figures
keep rising. bleahx.
the audio is set to mute. but its still beeping away.
whatever. shall do work liaox.

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oh yah. did i mention?! i have a virus in my computer...
some VBS.Loveletter/B hmmx.
hope whatever mails i sent didn't spread this.
+ anione know any cure to this virus?!

really dunwan to delete the .mp3 + .jpg files that got infected..
*sighx*

+ + + + + reminisiced at 06:47 memories... |

bleahx. vow not to stay online for too long.
haix. typed a damn long entry just now.
and ***pOoF** with that blackout,
its now all gone. literally ALL GONE. sniffs.
so sad lorx. dun feel like typing what i just typed.
hees. found a new place to go to get DIY stuffs
today. just realised that the places in singapore
about the same ones...hees. so lamey. like been there,
done that? bras basah seemed so foreign initially,
den just realised i've had frequent visits there for long...
hees. my primary one to three reading books were bought from there!!!
naturally made me feel nostalgic again. bleahx.

oh yah... i was nearly fined for overstaying in the train but
that staff uncle damn nice....hees. succumbed to my pleads,
and instead, deducted less than what was required for a normal
fare. really owe him a great favour man. but pal! u've got a great deed done!

going out with them is quite fun. hahas. all that lamey + yah...
guess we'll have to make time to go out again. hope whatever we
plan...goes on how we plan. bleahx. ***feels rather relaxed*** love huahui manx.

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Friday, August 2

..............when in doubt..........,
repeat this.
let me accept that which i cannot change.
let me ignore which i cannot change,
accept or ignore.
let me lock myself in the bathroom,hold my hands over my ears,
and hum about that.
which i cannot change,
accept or ignore...

+ + + + + reminisiced at 06:51 memories... |

be my [sunshine] says:
hey dearie, am just reading your blog

.be my [sunshine] says:
dun worry too much k? it's good that you are not taking your frens for granted

.be my [sunshine] says:
then show them you appreciate them by little notes or just telling them how impt your frenships are...it's ok, frens DO grow together even apart

.be my [sunshine] says:
sorry, i dunno wat else to say

.be my [sunshine] says:
but if the frens are meant to be, you guys would pull through it one

thanx alot gurl! dun worrie. think i'll be well through some thinking. thanx alot.

+ + + + + reminisiced at 06:49 memories... |

"Hold a friend's hands through times of trial,
let her find love through a hug + a smile,
But also know when it is time to let go,
for each and everyone of us,
must learn to grow"



i knew there wun be a happy ending of this thing.
even before the elections. i knew we were gonna
drift apart. like, seriously, what do we actually
have in common!?! okies. same sec 1 + 2 class.
but what do we do? rant about what probs we have...
and try to solve it?! haix.
i dunno.
really very scared. jus realised this few days of
_mang² den nv tokked to jiayan
nor evelyn for long. even if we did. it was just hi, bye.
**shi^ts got tests to study"" or something?!... and sometimes.
just at that moment, that situation.. whatever was happening... it
just didn't seem the most appropiate thing to do to just stay + listen.
didn't really feel like i could help. all i could do was just to hug. but.
arrx. i din mean not to be there but there were already better ppl there!
and... for

jiayan
+
evelyn
hope we wun drift.
hope we'll be the way we used to be.
i really love u ppl.
thanx for being there.
i'll try to. too!

+ + + + + reminisiced at 06:14 memories... |

:.we won!.:
today was such a roller-coasterical day.
so many ups + downs.
skipped lessons in the morning as i went for duty.
sat at the father barre with mich
serving the visitors + doing amaths ... at the same time.
arrx. i ^vow to work harder for my studies.
but arrx! freak. the recess bell was when it sounded my
end-of-duty-time + the start of the "battle" of the words...
we really didn't know it would be so easy.
it was just a huge huge relief... and that made me so happy!,
at least for the other half of the day before we were dismissed.
got back my chengyu tests and goodness.. i
initially thought it was ³⁶/₁₀₀ canz?
den...thankfully it wasn't... was ³⁶/₅₀.. without studying...
except for that É®¶àÖàÉÙ that din come out, at all. hmmx. went to look for panlao after
school to get key. turned out jesc took liaox. den > suprisingly,
panlao printed the stuffs liaox. den me + jm ended up giving the
ÁôÑÔ papers. bleahx.
den...xm + evil came. somehow we all just din have fate.
cun meet each other nor contact each other [[even through handphone]].
but yah. we did in the end.
read kl's letta to evil.
was a damn mean one, honestly.
but i really din have much to say.
wuz afraid of what i wld say wld just depress her further.
and _jm seemed already so... yahs.
haix. dunno. i feel quite bad nows. din even really console her.
just had things to do. arrx. i dunno.... but cun stand her whines.
but....arrx. felt so helpless.
but thouht shi + ming were good with it.
haix. den just left ...
.went to buy materials.
all those stuffs were damn ex. haix. way exceed budget.
hope tml we'll finalize what to buy. went novena sq. then...
realized its' got a lot of gift shops with really sweet things.
hais. wun it be nice to be rich?!
if only i can afford manx...
okies. feeling drained all of a sudden.
its now friday. seriously hope i wun be slacking throughout this
weekend.really got tonnes of stuffs to do......+ fwenships to mend.

haix.hope that woman feeling better liaox.

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Thursday, August 1

wouldn't a walk through life be great?
i remember the times when we were young,
so joyful, so carefree ... those kind of ÎÞÓÇÎÞÂǵÄÉú»î.
stress was merely just a word.
something that just meant s-t-r-e-s-s.
friendships were forever there.
those cranky fights were just some unknowing acts of selfishness.
and everyone just made up by offering what she/he didn't, initially.
no one wore masks.
it was just so so pure.
its either i 'friend you' or i don't.
recess was all about running about in the field,
screaming + yelling as if u own the whole world.
or just some nice peppy talk with your greatest buddy.
there was never backstabbing in sight.
nor were there conflicts.
at most, it was just some unlucky encounter
with the school bully ..
u never cared how u looked like to people.
although u just seem so picture perfect.
why do people tend to age more as + when they grow older?
beats me. this world sux. life sux. but ... arrx.
missed the "younger" times.
the naive-ness, purity + carefree ness.
ok.
i am just plain nostalgic

+ + + + + reminisiced at 07:10 memories... |

did i mention?
yingying's coming back school!!!
hope all the rest of the huahui ppl
have had fun...
+ qt disappointed with the sec 4s.
bleahs. they got 21/83?! 5th outta 6 groups somemore.

+ + + + + reminisiced at 07:07 memories... |

everything's great liaox.
now its the lao shi.

haix.

+ + + + + reminisiced at 07:05 memories... |

weariness

never knew it would turn out so tiring.
the scene was so damn corny lorx.
haven even started the game.
and the people were already running about.
ok. i guess the clues were too obvious.
hahas. but... hmmx. i think they all did enjoy
themselves...at least for the 1st part.
_{when the marking time came, it was sorta deadi.
not to mention giving out prez. arrx...!}
nan dao wo zhen de heng _disorganized marhs?
i am NOT lorx. *sniffs*
even if i am. will improve NOT to be lorx. sighs.erms. and red batch. hope they'll be enthu...


_{jus got home not long ago.} urghs + had dinner after bathing.
and now i am starting to sweat. ARRX! shall bathe again.
okies.the meeting... discuss so many things.
den in the end...butt aching.
but i really pity the tou hui auntie.
yah. a grp of us in there..den i tink we drove away customers?!
hmmx. really dun like taking down notes!came up with many
nice ideas. woas. hope it will work out well.

tomorrow we'll really going for a "battle". sincerely...faithfully
hope we will win the battle lorx. ±Øʤ֮ս!!
we shall win

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Wednesday, July 31

ok. cun resist the temptation to get online
+ blog. it is so addictive but i really
hope the addiction will die out soon.

something _terrible happened today.
arrx. all because of me. but...^arrx
duno larx. ***shan't comment*** but hope everything's resolved now.
jus me + my _{sick absent-mindedness}.yah
[[ how ironic. just covered diplomacy for resolving conflicts by
peaceful means and now this

ok. woas. everyone's is getting red eye buggy.
mich yeoh got it 2 weeks ago.
ying² got it on monday.
and fenni is sick today coz she just got it too.
and it jus so happens that its all the people
sitting around me

it is contagious. but i am not that worried.
and jus realised that its now ... only me
+ huishan who have caught that red eye buggy yet.
hahas. that illness sounds like some attractive yet
not attractive package!

1stly, u'll have 4 days of MC
2ndly, u'll just have a slight fever or maybe raging fever. but it only last for a day?!
3rdly. i doubt there's any discomfort. i doubt, that is.
and... duhs. it has it cons....
cons
well... u get really redeyes. maybe like some devil?!
hmmx. den ur eye gets swollen...there's pus from there. *** yucks>>>
and u can't go out/ school [[maybe be good news!]] coz its highly contagious
and ... hmmx.
does ur vision get blurr ... i wonder?!
oh no. now i think ivy might have caught it too.
she went to see doctor liaox. hope she din...
okies. haix. today was rather dismaying.
like heys! i realli din mean to leave
_anyone out lorx. den that PM meeting. arrx
such a drag. bleahx. dun mind going larx. but ... *xsdkpsokg*
den lessons were ok. the diplomacy thingy. the chinese essay
on some poor, pathetic, introverted father whose wife never
loved him. physics...as usual was merely a time for copying the
answers down.
think we damn mean to mrs ong ehs. but.
... its physics. shall try to be nicer soon.....then... that
conflict thingy really got me shooccckkkeeeddd lorx. then heard some
bad stuffs frm xm... + went band room with evil + jialin to chill..den ltr w xm.
it was till then we met that pan ² den.... *aRRX*.

our dreams. just smashed. just like that.

our dR>>>>///eAmS
haix. hope we'll be able to come
up with something tml. and tml's gonna be our first huahui huo dong...
hope it will turn out great. okies. shall go study ³Éä´ liaox.

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Tuesday, July 30

sometimes its just so amazing;
that however drastic things may seem to be,
they always turn out fine + wells. bleahx.

life is just so² weird.
and just when i am starting to enjoy
ying²'s company, she's down
with the red eye bug. meaning she
wun be coming to school: meaning i'll be sitting
alone...like today:for the rest of the week
can?!!! that same old disease happened to mich.
yeoh not long aGO. and now its occuring to ying.
maybe willl be my turn soon.

ying²! get well soon!

today's meeting was relatively successful.
wanted to end early but in the end didn't. but qt good
larx. considerin the progressin processes of the stuffs-in making.
especially my group >>> ¸è²á***
so proud of them manz~
okies. there was _conflict
as usual... + something happened to that hong dou bing
but haix. its like that kind of cases when everyone else
duno what to do: and the only thing to do was... " " how arrx?
haix. sad manz. okies. think i crap alor today... shall go bathe.
hees.

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Monday, July 29

Verse 1:

I read a note my Grandma wrote
Back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat
And he showed it once to me
He said
Boy you might not understand, but a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none
And I loved your Grandma so
We had this crazy plan to meet
And run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter
And this is what it said:

Chorus:
If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Until I see you again
I'll be loving you . . .
Love, Me

Verse 2:
I read those words just hours
Before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of a church
Where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I've never seen him cry
In all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her
His eyes filled up with tears

Chorus:
If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Until I see you again
I'll be loving you . . .
Love, Me

Breakdown:
And between now and then
Until I see you again
I'll be loving you . . .
Love, Me

***collin rayes: love, me***

+ + + + + reminisiced at 23:27 memories... |

hmmx. was another as per normal day
hees. jus came back to school though.
and well...what. just forgotten to sms her
den now i bet she's freaking pissed with me.
haix. whatever. so angry... or maybe dissappointed?


the class was immersed in the musical chords of
collin rayes' [[ love, me ]]so nice lorx. this song wuz
used for qihang but... didn't really listen to it.
tink its nice! ...bleahx.

If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Until I see you again
I'll be loving you . . .
Love, Me

love it! haha. its nice. but made me feel slightly
sleepy. bleahx. still got 20 odd minutes to go,
and that mad woman is nowhere to be seen
nor heard.

really hope xm, evil + weimin feeling better nows.
i didn't witness the morning scene at all but judging
from the way jialin described it... perharps it was some
blessing for me manx. was late for school today. arrx.
but sorta on time larx. hees. jus stepped in before the
rest of the class started the paper. yah. and ying₂
really never turn up today. hope she cums tml.. + she so
bad lorx. dun believe i ((actually)) missed her! XXX
where is she?!!!hees.

doesn't really matter i guess.
+ the other she arrx....+urghs+ _wadever

really hope later that meeting wun be as
_bad as yesterday...+ things can be done! +(o_O)+
and those two _bickering can stop their *ya*. and
i dun realli think i am in the mood to listen through _naggings today.



ok. better go get key liaox. i tink. hmmx. dunno
where they are. really hope xm + eve they all
alot better nows.

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hees. reached home.
haha. arrx. so supa full now. tt toopid rj lars
....cheat me into eating the tang yuan
***burps** and now my maid dun allow me to skip dinner
hmmphs!

feel so tired nows. haha. bleahx. its sorta qt fun larx.
those meetings... budden as it continues, it becomes so
_*yawns* yah. hmmx. and now we are not supposed
to be distracted at all. haix. but how can u expect complete
obedience?! wun the meetings become so so boring.


hitler?!
arrx. okies.
hees. class today was relative "as per normal."
that zhang bu bu neh-ed us again about
our script... but HEYS! pls lor. @##$%$%& haix
no comments.

den ying ² was feeling damn uncomfortable.
poor thing, she caught the red eye bug from her family. was tearing
the whole day + she cun concentrate at all. hope she's feelin
better or else tml no one pei wo liaox. then
arrx. tt sf arrx. damn mean to her lorx. guess it was
qt a big mistake to put the both of them together... but cun do
much now. jus ***pray.

but was shocked to hear ying² say
this its my last yr in huahui n i really want to do my part
lorx...but she. hmmx. was happy for the frnt
portion. ***yay*** really hope the other red batch are lydat too!


hees. it was sum prize presentation today. wasn't feelin too well
during assembly. like the last nite... tried to sleep at 12 but ended
up making my way to the loo till like 2am?! arrx. but thank god the
zombieness in me lasted qt short. hmmx. okies...
got something to say here...

i would like to dedicate this portion to my dearest
daddy~
happy burfday!!!
dunno how he will read it larx...but yahs.
hees guess i better get going liaox.
_{the opponents gathered together + cracked their brains
to come up ideas for the coming battle. however, 2 opponents whose
voice were the loudest in the group kept bickerin... and...goodness they
really create havoc lorx. one has the habit of incessantly naggin. the other
's mood is so DAMN unpredictable.}

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Sunday, July 28

lalal...
can save the hassles of typin font size 1 liaox!!!

hmmx.mondays! hate it love it.
okies. didn't manage to finish my work at all.
arrx. still got zuo wen + summary + maths + history
[to revise!] arrX!!!!


in class nows.
with tt toopid jm.ok. that woman boasting again.
okok.. thank you larx
haha. yeps. it wuz a nice layout. and still is.


waiting for time to pass + to go 4 _lishi
meeting. really got a hell lot of things to
discuss...hope there wun be conflicts in the rising tension...

+ + + + + reminisiced at 23:20 memories... |

pengs. mum kena pissed off
just because she don't have any sense of humour?!
_{sis jus care abt themselves + their spas
neopets? and heck abt their grades entirely?!!!}
kaoz lorx._{what kind of family do i have man...}

sucks.


and jus realised...
i got a lot of work to do.
haix.... howx?
hopefully can finish by tonight.
***pRaYs^
conclusion :. my mum's bias .:
haix whatever lorx

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